The Worst Part of My ED Was Its Unpredictability
I'm writing this because my specific problem with erectile dysfunction felt different from what I usually read about, and it was driving me crazy. For me, it wasn't a total shutdown. I’m 49, and the issue was the complete and total unpredictability of it all. One night, everything would be perfectly fine, no issues at all. Then, the very next night, under the exact same conditions, it would be a complete failure. This inconsistency was the worst part. It turned me into an amateur detective of my own body. I would lie in bed analyzing every single detail of my day. Did I sleep less last night? Did I eat something different? Was I more stressed about work than I realized? My mind would just race with these questions, and it was impossible to relax. Any chance of spontaneity with my wife was gone because I was always in my head, running through this checklist. My anxiety about whether or not my body would cooperate became a constant presence in our bedroom. My wife was understanding, but I could tell it was difficult for her too. The really cruel part was that the nights it worked gave me a false sense of hope, which made the nights it failed feel even more like a personal defeat. I just wanted some reliability. I wanted to know, one way or the other, what to expect.
I finally made an appointment with a urologist. He did some tests and told me my physical health was generally good. He said the problem was likely a combination of minor age-related blood flow changes that were being made much, much worse by the performance anxiety the unpredictability was causing. He suggested a prescription for sildenafil citrate to give me a reliable physical response and help break the anxiety cycle. He gave me a prescription for the most famous brand-name version. I was so hopeful. I tried it, and it worked exactly as advertised. It gave me a strong, solid erection. The feeling of certainty was incredible. For the first time in years, I knew my body would respond.
My relief, however, disappeared the first time I went to get the prescription refilled. The price was a huge shock. We have a mortgage and other family expenses, and the cost of this medication was just not something our budget could handle on a regular basis. This created a new problem. I started to feel a different kind of anxiety, a financial anxiety. Before taking a pill, I would find myself thinking, "Is this moment worth the money?" It made me hesitate. It put the pressure right back on, just for a different reason. I felt like I couldn't "waste" a dose. The solution was right there, but it was too expensive for me to use consistently. A solution you can't afford isn't really a solution.
This is what led me to look for other options online. I wasn't searching for miracle cures. I knew sildenafil worked for me. I was specifically looking for a generic version that was more affordable. I read through a lot of medical information sites and forums where men were discussing the same cost issue. A name that I saw mentioned several times was Fildena. I learned that it was made by a company called Fortune Health Care. I spent a whole evening just researching the company to make sure they were a large, legitimate pharmaceutical manufacturer. Once I was confident that they were a real company making a real product, I decided to try it. The price difference was enormous. It was the difference between being able to afford a normal, spontaneous sex life and having to plan for it like a major expense.
When the Fildena arrived, I treated it like an experiment. I took the same dose that I was prescribed of the brand-name pill. I took it about an hour before my wife and I planned to be intimate. I paid very close attention to how it worked. The result was exactly the same as the expensive version. After about 45 minutes, I felt the same physical signs I was used to—a little bit of warmth in my face and a slightly stuffy nose. During intimacy, the erection was just as strong and lasted just as long. There was no difference at all in the performance of the medication. The only difference was the name on the package and the price. The biggest change, for me, was mental. Because Fildena was affordable, the financial stress was gone. I could stop doing a cost-benefit analysis in my head. It became a simple, reliable tool I could use whenever the moment felt right, without worrying about the cost. It gave me the consistency I was desperate for, and that consistency finally allowed my brain to relax and get out of that cycle of anxiety.
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